I have always considered myself a very positive, glass-half-full kind of person. I don’t like drama and I certainly don’t like negativity. I wouldn’t be the person I am today If I was a negative person clinging to the past. So when one, two or more people tell me “you are being negative” my first reaction is denial.
But, I am nearly 34 years old. I am mature enough to think things through. I am impulsive ( I am an Aries) and I have a strong character. I am aware of who I am, and sometimes I do act in the heat of the moment. However I don’t consider myself negative, but blunt and to the point.
The Pill, Aunt Flo and Hormones:
I never had bad PMS. Never. I have always been very calm and zen when it comes to pre, during and post period days. I have been on the contraceptive pill for about 10 years, plus a year and a half with the contraceptive implant. The implant didn’t work for me. It made me gain lots of weight and made me suffer from headaches, so I quickly got rid of that and went on the pill again. Microgynon 30 was my pill for about 6 years, then I changed to Levora. Both of them are the combined mini pill (containing two hormones: ethinylestradiol and levonorgestrel or a progestin and an estrogen respectively). I had no weight gain, no mood swings, no PMS, and very light periods.
Background history: when I was 18 years old, I had three cysts removed from my ovaries by surgery. They were big enough to cause concern. You see although cysts tend to be benign, they can grow, burst and twist your fallopian tubes, resulting not only excruciating pain but also infertility.
Now at 32-years-old (last year) once again, a 5cm cyst was found in my left ovary.
I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome.
Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) is a common endocrine system disorder among women of reproductive age. Women with PCOS may have enlarged ovaries that contain small collections of fluid — called follicles — located in each ovary as seen during an ultrasound exam.
According to the Mayo Clinic “Infrequent or prolonged menstrual periods, excess hair growth, acne, and obesity can all occur in women with polycystic ovary syndrome. In adolescents, infrequent or absent menstruation may raise suspicion for the condition.” I have and have had in the past, all of these symptoms.
About a year ago when I was diagnosed with another cyst the doctor just decided to change my contraceptive pill (started with Levora). He said these cysts come and go and it wasn’t worth doing anything else. They are benign. However 6 months after the “treatment” my prescription for Levora (contraceptive pill) ran out, and my doctor left the clinic. Since then I have been without the pill (about 6 months). During this time I have noticed some changes in me, some changes I cannot explain.
The cause of PCOS is unknown. But most experts think that several factors, including genetics, could play a role. Women with PCOS are more likely to have a mother or sister with PCOS.
A main underlying problem with PCOS is a hormonal imbalance. In women with PCOS, the ovaries make more androgens than normal. Androgens are male hormones that females also make. High levels of these hormones affect the development and release of eggs during ovulation. To me, ovulation hurts. I always without a doubt know when I am ovulating, not only because of the physical changes but because of the 3-day dull pain.
Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) is not a disorder of the ovaries primarily, but rather, in essence, a disorder of the hormones. – PCOS.COM
According to many online sources, hormonal imbalance symptoms in women can include (but not limited to) mood swings.”Women can be, and many are, greatly affected by hormone fluctuations. Sometimes it gets to the point of feeling totally overwhelmed – as if for a time they have lost control of their life,” says Christiane Northrup, MD, author of The Wisdom of Menopause and Women’s Bodies Women’s Wisdom.
I think the key word here is “Overwhelmed”. We all manage our feelings in different ways, some great, some bad. But from a person who usually has everything in place, feeling overwhelmed with emotion and stress is not something I am familiar with. It is also affecting my relationships with close friends and family. As I mentioned at the beginning of the post, some people close to me, have told me I am being (too) negative at times – I have noticed this usually happens during “that time of the month” and since my cycles are shorter and I have breakthrough bleeding that time of the month happens more often than once every month.
I don’t want to be that person; I am not that person. I debated for a long time whether to write about this topic or not. It is a very private topic and I usually don’t blog about these things. But today I write this post because I am sure there are other women out there like me who at one point or another in their life have been affected by hormonal imbalances. I write this post because I want to find natural non-invasive ways to help with my PCOS and Hormonal issues.
I am starting this series called “From Superhero to Supervillian” in the search for answers, suggestions, questions, and natural options to deal with PCOS and Hormonal Imbalances. I start this series not just for me, but for my friends to understand my sudden bursts of Super Villian anger *insert buahahaha here* please bear with me! I promise I am not an ogre!
Please note I am not a doctor, nor an expert or physician. If you think you have PCOS or a hormonal imbalance please consult your doctor. Opinions are my own.